Romana's words

2008 was one hell of a year. We’ll see what 2009 has in store for us. And here’s my list, between myself and I:

1- Be less nice to ppl I don’t need to be nice to in the first place
2- Lose my 5 KGs
3- Stop spreading myself thin for ppl who are not worth it
4- Listen to my gut feeling
5- Concentrate on what matters
6- Less talking, more listening
7- Try not to take everything so personally and lighten up
8- Try not to be so trusting, my back is decorated with stab wounds
9- Try to heal from those wounds and move on and let go, rather than just storing them in that
box in the back of my mind
10- Try to stop pleasing everyone but myself
11- Stop exaggerating my problems with myself

And the list goes on (u don’t want to know how much more of a psycho I am)… but I don’t know what else to add… see, anyone who sees me think I’m this confident, successful, see the half full glass kinda girl, and I am…. I am happy, I am confident, and Al Hamdulilah I’m content , but I’m screwed up as well… silly things tips off my balance… not anything, but stupid little things hurt me… and that tips off my balance… and I wish I could be hurt less, or just immune myself to the silliness. It would definitely help me in the long run, less frown lines!!!

I don’t like being hurt (like who does eh!) and I do everything in my power not to get hurt. I don’t do well with hurt, I’m just one of those people that collapses internally when hurt, of course no one is any wiser, because I don’t usually share, I just collapse with myself and I have me to pick me up… and that’s why I’m extra nice, that is why I spread myself thin, especially for my friends and family, because I don’t want anyone to do anything that would hurt me… weird self defense mechanism?! Things happens, and yes, I do know that hurt is a part of life, but I try to avoid it as much as possible… but see, I guess being over-protective only makes u less immune to hurt and no matter how well prepared you are, something always will sneak up on you when you least expect it… hey, I’m still raw… my wound is still fresh… so excuse the extra melancholy!

Okaaaayyy, enough drama for one day! But hey, it’s my blog, I’m allowed! :P I’m being cheeky, lol, did it work? Hehe

I’m listening to Travis’s “Sailing Away” , and will leave you at that :)

Created: December 7, 2008

I can't even watch the news anymore... I don't want to see and hear about any more casualties, I just cant....

And that is the question that’s been tormenting me for the past couple of months. Ok, tormenting is an exaggeration, cos I wasn’t tormented, but it occupied a lot of thinking space!

I love writing, now whether I have the knack for or it or not, is pretty much debatable; and proof for my debatable love is that you’re reading this now, cos I pretty much vowed that I won’t blog again, it stopped being fun, but never say never!… I re-read my previous posts and comments and will list what I felt:

1- Stupid for not proof-reading
2- A bit of a hypocrite
3- Different

Its either I’m a hypocrite (just a bit :P), or people have different convictions over time. I also sucked-up a lot!!! I hated myself… when I read some of my comments to some of the bloggers all I kept thinking, ughhhhhh bloody hell, can you suck-up any more! I was trying to be nice… and ended up all over the place! That’s my problem, I try to be nice to avoid hurting people’s feelings, and end up doing something I’m not content with. What does that say about me!?! I was not genuine. I just kept over-doing it sometimes, saying things that doesnt completely represent me as a person. I started this blog to be me, but ended up being a bit of everyone I despise. I'm not saying that I did not enjoy writing the blogs, or that the words written are ones that I don't approve of or feel like I need to detach myself from, no, I enjoyed every word and all the time spent typing and conjuring them :) and it was me all the way, I just can't help but think that romana today isn't the same romana that typed those words to the extent that I'm calling her a hypocrite! I think i have split personality disorder or something!!! :P

I don’t even know why I’m blogging again, a part of me does not want anyone to find out that I’m blogging again I just want this space for myself, but at the same time, I want my words to be read, laughed at, commented on… I just don’t want those compliments that we Libyans are so good at. I don’t want anyone to comment out of courtesy… I don’t want anyone saying they liked something so they wouldn’t offend me, really, no one owes anyone anything, so can we be ourselves in this so called anonymous space of ours?

Now why I felt different? I can’t really put my finger on it… but I didn’t feel it was me all the way… I loved the font Verdana then, I thought it was the most beautiful font there is, now I’m in love with Arial size 10, and as silly as this sounds, but that is change too… I wore more colours, and been wearing less colour than I used to and lots of black lately (not just to look slimmer :P) … ok, I’m being a bit morbid ? Hehe I don’t want to try and attempt to understand myself, I will just go with the flow … it’s much easier this way… it’s probably just a phase… but then again, life is a series of phases :)

Now that’s one long come-back post!

Eid Mubarak, Merry Xmas, and a very Happy New Year to you all :)

I love talented people, i just love them. Talent doesnot love me :( but hey, i learned to live with that a long time ago... ahh u know what, i'm bored and i dont want to make more of a fool of myself, so, lets leave it at, ENJOYYY :)

Hellos Hellos Hellooos



It's been a while!!!



usually when something remotely exciting happens in my life, a light bulb flashes and think " i have to blog about it", for some reason, the electricity wires in my brain were down with humidity, lol, it was only yesterday that my current circuit started flowing properly, and as u see, I'm blogging!


every Sunday and Thursday, mama has a lady who comes to help her out with the cleaning. the symptoms cleanliness are obvious, i come home, smell dettol on the stairs, that's how i know that Baheeja is over. Yesterday as i was walking up the flight of stairs, there was no dettol! so i came in, and said my hellos to my parents, and asked mama why did not Baheeja come in today?



and here's the story:



Poor Baheeja is the most clueless woman you can ever meet, really, she's not the vulgar type , or rude, or anything in that category, not at all, as a matter of fact, i don't like to see her when i come home sometimes, because there's so much sadness in her eyes, that can drown Little Miss Sunshine!!! but then again, she wouldn't have left Morocco and came to Libya to work as a maid if her life was all cheery now, would she?



she usually takes a cab to our house, drops her right where she wants, but yesterday was different. As she was approaching our house, she asked the guy to enter the zanga (whats a zanga in english?), but he didn't. He just kept going his way, away from where she asked. Apparently, he had something fishy in mind, because every time she asked him to stop, he wouldn't... dear Baheeja opens the door, and throws herself out of the car, just like in those Hollywood action movies where the victim jumps out of the car, rolls over, and stands, as if its a mundane-day-to-day thing jumping out of cars. Well its not a mundane-day-to-day thing!!! Baheeja is safe and sound Alhamdulila, but the impact was strong enough to nearly dislocate her hips, her knuckles were bleeding, and her sides were bruised poor thing.



and that's why???? probably cos that old granpa asshole of a cabdriver automatically did the Libyan math for Moroccans, which is, Moroccan = slut, excuse my french!

and it just frustrated me, she's such a good woman, i mean if she is the type that oozes sexual signals, i would understand, but really, she's not! it just made me hate Libyan men even more, because that's how MOST of them are, any walking female, is simply and merely something to bang, of course, except for their holy mothers and sisters, not saying that they are not, but u get my point i guess!!!



Isn't this sad? just tell me, can men be more retarded?

Now Baheeja had the guts to jump, those who are more timid, what are they to do?

now, my fellow male bloggers, don't account this as a hint of a insult to you, or start defending MAN in general. because the type of man who allows himself to be so , so, so, so, I DON'T HAVE A WORD TO EXPRESS MY DISGUST!!!

so that's poor Baheeja's story, and its probably the story of millions in Libya, we should make a support group or something from all those physical and verbal harassments.

my only question, WHEN ARE THEY GOING TO GROW UP?!

My apologies everyone :(


I'm hitting some sort of a dry spell, dont know why. Haven't been in the mood to post to tell you the truth. i have been visiting all your blogs, regulary, sorry for not commenting!

all is well, :)

A-akak, thanks for always checking up on me, ibee you too

Ibee, i missed you too :)

Lebeeya, yalla post babes! i hope all is well in Oman,all in the right place

Maysoon, where are you?

Anglo-libyan, my apologies for not commenting much on your blog lately,

Happymoi, hope you're enjoying your stay in dubai, live it large! lol

Lost-Libyan, ha? hows the experience coming along? lol

Mani, if you're reading this, WHERE ARE YOU? why is requested URL not found? :(

PH, your 2007's Recommended Movie Viewing's - Updated is just great! thanks for that! really helped me out!

Picco and Maiuna, sorry gals for not dropping a hello or a hi


anyway, i will leave you with the following amazing works of the irani artist Iman Maleki, *he is so accurate and talented Mashalla, that for a moment i thought the following were photos, please enjoy :)

Isnt *he so talented? Mashalla :)

Hello everyone, God i missed blogging! lol

i was signed up for a 3-day training course, very hectic! from 8 to 4:30, that's compressed training! lol

anyways, here's something i found very , hmm, whats the word, interesting??? don't know, again, this is for you to judge and make your comments on! lol




emmm yepppp, its a grave, in case u were wondering what the hell this is! lol but i guess "what the hell" could be a good expression for this eh! lol

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now below is a real published newspaper, i think its called "masr al youm", "Egypt today" , and please, check what they wrote after the president's name! how did they publish that! really! no supervisors? no edit team or whatever!!!

I'm very sorry to share those disturbing pics with u, i personally think they are, i don't know what you guys think, some would probably think they are sweet, and love conquers all, but i just think they are PLAIN SICK! I'm old fashioned, what can you do!

What Do You Think????

Lawyeres ( one of my close friends who will hopefully be blogging soon) lol thanks for the pics!

This is just a short post to CONGRATULATE OUR MRS.DA STARS, DAMOON,
girls, those of you who couldnot make it, SHE LOOKED BEAUTIFUL! MASHALLA MASHALLA

SO MY DARLING DAMOONO, I HOPE U'LL BE HAPPY WITH YOUR NEW LIFE, and inshalla ya Rab Allah yhaneek fi every step you choose to make with ur hubby :)

love you dudette

Wish you all the best inshalla

Be happy :)

Ph, thank you dear, couldnt have done it without u! lol feels like im giving an MTV speech! lol

now guess what? im pissed off! lol yep, im pissed off because i couldnot figure it out, as apparently its no nulcear science! lol so thank u PH again, for real.

so check this out, i thought it was amazing!

Oh my God, lol, sorry Ibee and Anglo Libyan, apparently something went off when i posted this yesterday, i didnot mean to sound so melodramatic! sorry!!


here's the rest of the post!!

YES PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!

Can someone please show me how to post a video? im done trying to figure this out on my own! I tried Blogger's help, something about downloading smilebox, and i did, and it only got worse!

i have so many videos i want to share with you! dont know how!

so please, my dear smart sisters and brothers, help your sister in need!

romana is begging for your help, please help her, or she'll go Cuckooo!!!

my friend and i were taking a stroll by Al-shatt road, and i was shocked to see they have started their seriers of tearing buildings down. seems like they're enjoying it , inshalla ma yoosloosh fi 7oshna bs! lol so check, tab3an tab3an, everything is in the name of "6a6weer"!

quoting from my friend " destruction Vs Nature" building down, tree untouched... more destruction Vs nature, "there's beauty in the breakdown"

one man's misery, is another man's fortune, lol, that's how it goes no? those guys were actually picking some things from this rummage! proves the half-full glass theory! lol

notice, the "ازالة" sign in red!

what used to be the tennis court in Nadi al Remal, why did they leave this side of the wall?

on the way to nadi el-remal... thats wat it looks like now, as though war has taken place

yea yea, my windshield needs cleaning, no need for pointing that out, lets stick to the point! loool :P

PICTURES PICTURES PICTURES! FINALLY! got my act together, remembered the CD today AND and chord! so yeaaay! sorry, im one day late! so much for punctuality ha!

so above as u have seen, are the after pictures, of Al-Shatee hotel and Al-Remal Club.. what are they going to do with all of this clutter, is a question that keeps popping every single time i pass by this area... where are they going to dispose it? throw it in the ocean, like everything else? maybe i will get you some after After pics, after all this mess is cleared up... we'll see what happens, will keep u posted!




since im late, i thought i should double post, 2 in 1, some sort of tax. below are pics of brand new car, totally smashed, i pass by it everyday, and thought, hey, what the heck, let the world see how reckless some drivers are... i felt so bad for the owner! i've had my share of accidents, and i know how much a dent on u car can have on ur salary! so check'em out!

i just want to know where the hell did this guy or girl (who knows, maybe!) smash their car... and inshalla who ever was driving it, is safe and sound... be careful out there, even if u're not at fault, u can get into an accident here in Libya...

that's it for now, update about Libya

Salamaaaat

now thats girly! naa, i drive well!

i wouldnt ball in this alley, would be too afraid to ruin the decor! lol lol chained! the cruelty!
we've got a toilet paper issue!
hehehe now this is cool!
now, segregation was never the answer! but its so cute like that! lol

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And this is for all the gentlemen! couldn't leave u left out like this! SOME ACTION ta-daa! lol

yikessss!!! trying to be a hot shot eh! lol lets see what u can do without a front wheel!

poor doggy! don't ask me how authentic those are, I'm as clueless as u!
now thats fun! dont u think! ouuch!
nice feast! but there's only one of him! not enough!

since I'm very stupid, and very forgetful (i dont know how i get hired!) there will be no pics today, i forgot the chord to my phone! owww and some very very sad news, my Pc a3takom 3omrah! il ta3azi maftoo7a min il youm! honestly, i got the nuttiest PC in Libya! i had it fixed 2 months ago, lost all my pics, and all my memories, and now AGAIN! it simply would not start! how saddd!!! i took precautions this time, i had all my pics burned... so t3alamna!

so, i will try and give u a brief update..

I'm at my new job, I'm getting used to it, my boss is probably the nicest boss 3ala wajh il ard! so overall, i love it... i still need to learn a lot of things... and the girl who i replaced, taught me the most important things... I've honestly never ever seen a girl as helpful as she is, so THANKS DAMOON! yep, its her I'm replacing! its only when time passed i learned how much she did for me, and u have no idea how more i respected her after what she did... so Damoono, if u're reading this dudette, thanks babes :)

what else what else.... i missed blogging, with a passion! last Tuesday we had people coming over to congratulate me on my graduation... poor mom prepared so much food it lasted 2 days, i took pics of everything, but since i told u, my PC is officially dead now, i don't have any visual proof!

anyways, i gotta go now, i will leave u with the following, found it in my clutter the other day... u judge:

Two men were on a plane on a business trip when a Muslim couple boarded the plane and were seated right in front of them.
The two men, eager to have some fun, started talking loudly. "My boss is sending me to Saudi Arabia", the one said, "But i don't want to go...too many Muslims there!"
The Muslim couple noticeably heard and grew uncomfortable. The other guy laughed, "Oh yea, my boss wanted to send me to Pakistan but i refused,... WAY too many Muslims!"
Smiling, the first man said, "One time I was in Iran but I HATED the fact that there were so many Muslims!"
The couple fidgeted. The other guy responded, "Oh yea...you cant go ANYWHERE to get away from them...the last time i was in FRANCE i ran into a bunch of them too!"
The first guy was laughing hysterically as he added, "that is why you'll never see me in Indonesia...WAY too many Muslims!"
At this, the Muslim man turned around and responded politely, "Why don't you go to Hell?" , he asked, "I hear there's not very many Muslims THERE!"

HELOOOOOOSSSSS, promise im going to be updating very very soon! i took pics and all! i still read ur posts though...all of them! i came accross ibee's latest post, and ta-daaa, the followin is a result! i didnot think i would be mother teresa though! im such a nice person!!!! im an angel!!! looool

love u all
miss u all

im an angeelllll looooooooooooooool