I'm So Pissed!

Sunday morning, August 16, 2009, 8:33AM.

I'm in a stage in my life where I'm content. Strong relationship with my family; good, actually no, great friends; Work: will complain in a sec; goals for this year are mostly ticket; so الحمد الله.

Now my complain about work begins:

I have a great boss, one who I learn quite a lot from, even to the simplest of things like grammar; and I do love working for my company, we have a great team and environment; but I'm such a baby when it comes to things that I categorize under "betrayal" (I wont elaborat on the "betrayal" incident, don't want to go into one of those moods and ruin my day).. See, I know that I tend to hang on to things way past their expiry date, but I can't help it, I know it's not good for me, I know that it's not very mature, but I can't help it! I've been trying to teach myself the art of letting go, but my stupid subconscious doesn't seem to register anything I ask from it! So the result? One of two things, either feel like crying (told you, I'm a baby) every time I remember that situation, or get so angry I want to rip some body's head off! How stable am I? haha. But you know what shares those two extreme emotional states? The word Unfair.

  • It is unfair that I work for 5 managers when I was hired to work for one and guess what, get the pay for working for just one!
  • It is unfair that some of those managers assume that it is my work to assist them, and even take it for granted, when I only do it out courtesy not obligation!
  • It is unfair that some of those managers don't see your best interest at heart, and treat you as they want; a friend when it suits them, or a professional manager when it doesn't! And I'm supposed to accommodate that?
  • It is unfair that despite all of this, I still feel like it's my job to accommodate all of this shit, why? So I wont lose my "Efficient Professional" image that I've worked so hard to build.

So where does that leave me?

It leaves me blogging about my feelings, rather than taking action.

I am so pissed!

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2 Response to "I'm So Pissed!"

  1. PH says:
    August 24, 2009 at 1:33 a.m.

    "Efficient Professional"

    Don't let yourself become a slave to what others think of you, people are never satisfied. Just make sure you do your job properly to the fullest and don't bother with anything else, anyone who tries to take advantage of you isn't worth worrying about and is fair game.

    Ramadan Karim Inshaa Allah and don't think about it too much, it'll give you grey hairs :P.

  2. Anonymous Says:
    August 25, 2009 at 7:11 p.m.

    I like your blog!
    I'm just wondering...do you work for a French company?
    it would be very typical. And it's not a matter of preconceived ideas or prejudices. Know them too well.