I'm So Pissed!
Sunday morning, August 16, 2009, 8:33AM.
I'm in a stage in my life where I'm content. Strong relationship with my family; good, actually no, great friends; Work: will complain in a sec; goals for this year are mostly ticket; so الحمد الله.
Now my complain about work begins:
I have a great boss, one who I learn quite a lot from, even to the simplest of things like grammar; and I do love working for my company, we have a great team and environment; but I'm such a baby when it comes to things that I categorize under "betrayal" (I wont elaborat on the "betrayal" incident, don't want to go into one of those moods and ruin my day).. See, I know that I tend to hang on to things way past their expiry date, but I can't help it, I know it's not good for me, I know that it's not very mature, but I can't help it! I've been trying to teach myself the art of letting go, but my stupid subconscious doesn't seem to register anything I ask from it! So the result? One of two things, either feel like crying (told you, I'm a baby) every time I remember that situation, or get so angry I want to rip some body's head off! How stable am I? haha. But you know what shares those two extreme emotional states? The word Unfair.
I'm in a stage in my life where I'm content. Strong relationship with my family; good, actually no, great friends; Work: will complain in a sec; goals for this year are mostly ticket; so الحمد الله.
Now my complain about work begins:
I have a great boss, one who I learn quite a lot from, even to the simplest of things like grammar; and I do love working for my company, we have a great team and environment; but I'm such a baby when it comes to things that I categorize under "betrayal" (I wont elaborat on the "betrayal" incident, don't want to go into one of those moods and ruin my day).. See, I know that I tend to hang on to things way past their expiry date, but I can't help it, I know it's not good for me, I know that it's not very mature, but I can't help it! I've been trying to teach myself the art of letting go, but my stupid subconscious doesn't seem to register anything I ask from it! So the result? One of two things, either feel like crying (told you, I'm a baby) every time I remember that situation, or get so angry I want to rip some body's head off! How stable am I? haha. But you know what shares those two extreme emotional states? The word Unfair.
- It is unfair that I work for 5 managers when I was hired to work for one and guess what, get the pay for working for just one!
- It is unfair that some of those managers assume that it is my work to assist them, and even take it for granted, when I only do it out courtesy not obligation!
- It is unfair that some of those managers don't see your best interest at heart, and treat you as they want; a friend when it suits them, or a professional manager when it doesn't! And I'm supposed to accommodate that?
- It is unfair that despite all of this, I still feel like it's my job to accommodate all of this shit, why? So I wont lose my "Efficient Professional" image that I've worked so hard to build.
So where does that leave me?
It leaves me blogging about my feelings, rather than taking action.
I am so pissed!
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